Did all of this just happened? Among other things…

I cannot believe the changes that are presently happening in my life within the past eight months which has not been an equivalent of a year yet. Yes, all of this has summed up to eight months that seems like it was not long ago at all, but you see for me it felt like a year. I guess all of the build up, planning, and some unexpected things that happened quickly all brought me to where I am now. To explain all of this first things first is on a Monday morning February 7, I walked into my supervisor’s office turned in my office keys with two pieces of paper – one was a resignation and the other one was a leave slip for taking time off in lieu to my resignation date. However, the last part did not go well but I made sure that it all worked out anyway, so I would not have to endure working in that office for two weeks until my departure date. It happened and I was still able to get a paycheck.

Another big occurrence happened when I finally moved and relocated to another state. For the first time in my life I did not let anything or anybody tell me that I could not do this. It was touch and go as to rather all of it was going to happen (financially and obtaining a job), yet so many of the same old mess were going on at my old job, and my life feeling like it was at a standstill and not moving forward that I had to make a move to change it. Afterwards, my short break from the Christmas holidays and went back to work that the job was just crazy and stressful. Now, I can fully understand when people say that when they had enough, that it is just that ENOUGH and time to give it up and move on. So, that is exactly what I had to do by basically put my faith out there in the universe. Believe it or not afterwards so many blessings have been happening since February. I wake up everyday feeling thankful!

My online college course are going smooth, but the classes are getting tough and thankfully I know that giving up is not an option. Unfortunately, the student loans are also a friendly reminder for me as well, that when I have to start paying them back at least by then it will all be worth it.

I plan on getting back on track with my writing. For some time I have been looking into doing freelance, which I probably have mentioned more than once in my previous entries yet it just I feel like it is compatible with my personality. I just cannot see how I could box myself into just one genre to write about when I can write about any and everything more than once. To me, that is the most creative part of writing which is not letting other writers, editors and publishers telling you that you have to stay writing about this particular genre. However, if as a writer you only enjoy and prefer to write specifically within one genre for instance science fiction then that is perfectly fine. Yet, don’t be afraid to try something new with your writing and branch out to a different genre as well. On a personal note, I can just see how that is my niche.

Therapy, part 1

I sit in silence with music in the background
Thinking, and thinking but somehow
Wondering where my life is going
Wanting to be my own fortune teller to look into a crystal ball to see into my future
What does it hold for me?
Some days I think I have all of the answers, and other days feels like I come up dry and empty
This I know that I am my own destiny, my own success
Saying no to the naysayers and shaking off haters
Surrounding myself around positivity
Whatever the case may be I must do for me
I know that I am not content with my life
So, I must go, must do something fulfilling
This coming year I have a new vision, more wisdom and understanding
Only prayers to the good Lord above and persistence will take me there

I truly believe deep down inside for my heart and mind is yearning for more
Knowledge
Throwing out the rules is a good thing I’m learning it’s not meant for you to remain
in the same place for too long
It is not good for your mind, body and soul
Opening yourself to your true desires is where the dreams become alive
You are never too old to go beyond the ordinary, to get past the routines of your life
You can be your own worst critic and yet holding yourself back at the same time
from achieving that meaningful thing
I can attest to all of this
The negativity, becoming my own worst enemy, holding myself down for too long
Oh, how I see the rainbow shining over the hill
For if I keep reaching and climbing I can grab it with my bare hands
Clench it tight and never letting it go until I die
The people around me will see me beaming like the radiant sun
No more cloudy days the storms are over.

Copyright: V. Saizon

National Novel Writing Month

National Novel Writing Month began on Nov. 1st and ends on Nov. 30th. If you are planning to get a novel written in a month then this website is for you. One can register for free with a username and password and join a local region group from your area. Just from browsing, there is a region for almost any country and city in United States. Another cool feature when you register is each day you can track your words or even download a widget to add on your website, blog, etc. for tracking your words.

I just stumbled across this website recently while browsing Oprah’s website and thought to check it out. By all means will I have a novel written in a month, but I could definitely use it to track my words written. Maybe even a motivating factor for me to write more. Now, that would be excellent!!

Check out the website: http://www.nanowrimo.org/

Good things and writing

My plans this evening didn’t turn out the way I wanted to – which was to attend and sit in on the council meeting. My coworker had a situation that occurred this afternoon an hour or so before my quitting time and since I could relate I decided to ditch my plans and help him out. By the time I did all of that I was not going to drive back heading downtown for the meeting, plus it would have been to late anyway. There is next month so I’ll plan ahead for that.

After I dropped the coworker off at his destination while driving in my car heading home felt grateful that I was able to assist him, but then I couldn’t help thinking about my current personal situations and where I want to go with my life. Of just how important it is to put good works out there in the world, that when you do it is destined to come back to you. No, this just isn’t about helping out a coworker today but just doing the right things everyday. This includes for myself of honesty, helping others, being non-judgmental and the list can go on. I am learning to refrain from my vocabulary of constantly saying, “well I’m not perfect but…” or “Nobody’s perfect, but….” well duh we all know nobody was placed on this earth to be perfect, right? For me, it’s just all about being a better person and learning from mistakes. Moving on from past experiences and to take each day as a gift to prepare for better things to come in the future.

Writing….

I typed 600+ words last night and not sure how the story will unfold. I haven’t even plugged in any characters yet just a story from a first person point of view. It was just a freewriting piece I did that could probably turn into a short story, of course once I get characters plugged in and have more of a concise idea of what to do with it. Anyway it is the only  thing that I have going on as of now with the writing process.

Fabulous day

Grateful that today was another good day for me at work. Very seldom I get those kind of days at this job but when they do come I don’t take them for granted at all. Through the trials and tribulations that I encountered there that when I have a wonderful day like today I have to be appreciative for them. I was even able to sneak in some writing of some thoughts that came to me that I just had to type and save. I’m learning that no matter what I’m thinking may seem silly at the time or even not all the way complete to jot them down anyway. Who knows what it could lead to later on because those same silly thoughts may be exactly what I need for a story. See, I’m paying attention and catching on.

Tomorrow evening after work I am planning to attend the local metro council meeting. I never really paid any attention to the council members or even cared to vote for my city district councilman. Never bothered to learn who is representing my district in these meetings. During election time to vote for a new councilman I just randomly choose anybody on the ballot. Goes to show how interested I was until now. A few weeks ago I contacted via e-mail the Human Resources department at the local newspaper where I live inquiring about stringers and contributing writers. Within a couple of days I received an email from the assistant metro editor regarding the e-mail I sent to HR. Unfortunately, at this time I don’t have any writing samples to send, so I got this idea over the weekend to sit in on some council meetings and school board meetings to learn what exactly goes on, take notes and write my articles. Don’t have an AP (Associated Press) book or a journalism degree but it’s a start. Speaking of the Associated Press book, I need a class to learn and understand on how to use it. One day I was at the bookstore and came across it again to really find out the cost of it, but just by flipping through it I was like what the..It’s not like any of those college English handbooks you have to buy. AP book is totally different but if you’re a journalism student it’s a must have to use.

The metro meeting on tomorrow starts at 4:00 pm and I don’t get off from work until 4 p.m. I’m thinking that these meetings are open to the public, and I should be able to attend even if I’m slightly late. Will update on how it goes.

Procrastination=laziness

Yep, I confess all these years with procrastinating about this and that really is just an excuse to cover up my laziness. It took me, oh 20 plus years to finally admit this to myself, but as the old saying goes with age comes maturity, and if it doesn’t for some folks it should.

I went to a writer’s workshop yesterday at my local library here with a panel of local authors from the area where I live. I heard the word deadlines reiterated more than once by a few of the authors. That really made me take note mentally as well as taking note on paper. Deadline is a word that I don’t get along with too well. It goes back to doing homework and reports in high school. Then in college taking both freshman English you had to have a deadline to complete your essay or  procrastinate the day before class by staying up late typing a two or three page essay. Did that and regretted it more times than you can think of. Yet, for some reason it was either a challenge for me to wait until the last minute to get all of my information together, or either a thrill with a rush of adrenaline of completing it at the last minute. I don’t know but it was crazy. Needless to say my grade with all of the red marks showed it from my lack of planning ahead.

Since I’m an aspiring writer in process I need to learn how important deadlines are. Even though I’m getting my creativity off the ground this is the perfect time to set up a schedule and set up deadlines to complete this writing project and so on. Since I know the best times my brain works more effectively on certain things for instance during the week it is at night. On weekends, I have noticed it is mid mornings or in the afternoons. Then my schedule can be set around that for me to go hard on my writing, brainstorming ideas, or whatever it is as long as it is helping my writing, and to keep going at least for an hour or so. Then, stop leave it alone do other things that I need to do and come back in the afternoon or that night. Before I know it I will see a difference with my writing abilities with accomplishing deadlines, not to mention feeling more confident and motivated. With that I’ll have things written and able to send off those queries.

Would be lovely for me to spend more time working on this blog. I would like to track my progress of my writing, and just posting things that I originally planned to do when I started this months ago.

On my mission to kick the evil procrastination nemesis that’s been hanging around far too long out the door forever.